Well three years ago today Parker and I were sitting on my mom's couch just laughing and playing around. It went silent and Parker said to me " I really wish you were my girlfriend" I thought it was so cute and sweet. I remember sitting there thinking to myself if I say yes then there is a good chance I am saying no to my mission. I sat there and made a nervous laugh and trying to buy myself sometime, I remember saying so would we get to change our Facebook status haha I knew at that point in my life Parker was going to change every plan I had ever made for myself, every thought of never getting married and every fear I had ever had of being with someone for the rest of my life well and eternity. I know this sounded so dramatic to think such heavy thoughts when he was just asking me to be his girlfriend. Yes everyone, I had boyfriends in the past and yes they had asked me to be their girlfriend but this was different. Everything with Parker felt different. How so? We n...

This year has been absolutely crazy. I think I have learned more about myself this year than I ever have before, for the good and the bad. So this is what I have discovered.... I am not perfect and I am so okay with that! I have always tried to be the perfect daughter...sister....wife...niece....cinderella girl and friend. But I just can't be this perfect person that people think I am or what I think I am. Sometimes I don't have it all together, my life has been anything but balanced this past year. Sometimes I am not too keen on helping people but  I do it anyways. Or I  do things because I feel really guilty and I am a huge people pleaser. another thing is I will listen  and hear how wonderful people's lives are and I try to rejoice with them even though my life feels like a complete mess and sometimes makes me sad.  But lately I am really trying to learn to say no if I really don't want to do something. Or I just try to keep my mouth shut so I don't feel like I n...