Everything changes!

I found out that I have a problem with change... I should have known this about myself for years but it is all coming together these past few months. Let me tell you how the events unfolded.
Back in January my cell phone completely died on me at work. Later I figured it is probably time to do some upgrading. I went in and the salesmen says uhhh you have had your phone for 4 years!!!!! So what did I do? Yes I got the upgrade however I just got a g2 its practically the same phone as I had before.
The last few things aren't that huge of a realization but just reflecting on my life I found some things that never change. My hair- I have had long dark brown/black hair since I was in 8th grade and that isn't even my natural hair color.
Job- I always have had jobs that I stay at for a very long time. I like the stability and I like knowing what I am doing and being good at it. After I took a huge leap of faith to leave my favorite job of 2 years at Monarch Dental to Ultradent I got laid off after 9 months. Ever since then my job life has been anything but stable.
Home- I have lived with my mom for 21 years. Even when I moved out for college I had my mom keep my room the same and left my big belongings there.
I know you are probably wondering okay what is the point of this post? Well now that I am fully aware of how bad I am with change, change is coming right around the corner for Parker and I and I am scared of what the future holds. First and foremost I was told by the lady I nanny for that she is cutting my days and I will only be working 2 days a week... Second of all Parker and I have been looking around for houses and we were getting so excited about it. It kind of came to a hold after we heard the news about my job. So not only did we have a set back with that but we also have to move out of our apartment next month. I can't tell you how many times I have cried about moving out of our first place together.
So many changes and one thing Parker and I have truly been lacking on is our faith in the Lord. He knows what he is doing and he loves us. I was praying for help and I grabbed my scriptures afterwards and opened to Ether 12:6 The line that brought me so much comfort was "wherefore dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith" I know we just need to keep having faith even if we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel right away. I know it is there and we just need to have faith that we will be watched over and taken care of.

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  1. Michael and MorganJuly 22, 2011 at 9:04 AM

    Meg!! I can't believe you didn't tell me about your blog. I am deeply offended!!!! JK but I am adding you to my blog list fo sho!!!

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