Happy Birthday Sammie!

A couple of years ago today, it would have been a great night. Why? Well September 1St was one of my best buddies birthday. We would have gone to either Chilies or TGIFs and celebrated the birth of one of the most amazing people that have ever entered into my life.
Sam would have given me a great big bear hug and tell me he loves me. We would have laughed hard and loud. Talked about fun memories in the past. Little did we know we were making another great memory that I would do anything to have back.
But today instead we will get together tonight with friends and his family. We will have ice cream and cake and talk about how much we love"our Sammie" and how much we miss him.
My heart is heavy today because my Sammie won't be there to celebrate his life with us. We don't get to hear his hilarious laugh, feel his hugs, or hear his voice...
It still is so unreal to me that my Sammie is gone. It breaks my heart and I feel empty just thinking about it. He was the guy you could always rely on for anything. Sam was the person that sat there and listened to you when you had a hard day and would take me to get an ice cream when things weren't going well. I could talk to him for hours about life and never feel judged. Sam would always text me almost everyday and make sure my day or week was going well. I really had never had a best friend like him before. I feel like sometimes I took him for granted.
Another great thing about Sam was he was so welcoming when Parker became part of my life. I remember Parker telling me one night that he looked up to Sam and couldn't believe what a hard worker he was. But that was what was so great about Sam he loved everyone and everyone loved him.
I think of him often and dream of him. I know he is watching down on all the people he loves. I miss him so much it hurts and wish I could have had just one more day with him.
Happy Happy Birthday Sammie!


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