Letters on Balloons...

This Saturday was Parker's dads anniversary. It has been 8 years since he has passed away. I don't really feel worthy writing this blog post but from what I have heard he was an amazing man. I have living proof what a great man he was because I married his son.
Parker had an adorable idea to write a note on a balloon and send it off to his dad. We drove up to his grave and we wrote letters on balloons and sent them off. We decorated his grave and sat there for a minute.
It is really hard for me to know Parker had and has to go through this. Parker is the strongest person I have ever met in my life. But I still hate that he had to go through that. He was too young and he should have had more time with his father.
Although I knew it was going to be a hard day I really wanted to make the day a special one for him. I thought it would be really fun to go to Thriller. I haven't been since I was little and Parker had never been. Well it was an absolute success! It was so amazing and we had so much fun!
After Thriller we decided to go to Texas Roadhouse! Parker's dad loved steak so we got one in remembrance of him. Later that night we went over to my dad and Tammie's and watched/talked politics of course! {Parker's and I favorite thing to do with them}
I know Parker still struggles with his death and last night it became a little harder for him. However I think we made some good memories and a new tradition. We will go to the grave with balloons every year and make it a celebration for our future children.
I just have to say how proud I am of Parker. He has overcome so many struggles and trials in his life. I can't believe the things he had and is going through. Parker is the perfect example and I learn so much from him each day. Parker is perfection in my eyes and the way he handles his trials is truly admirable to me.











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