Our journey to and during pregnancy!

I have to say I never imagined myself pregnant. I wasn't that girl that dreamed about being pregnant and having a family. My dreams were graduating college, having a fabulous career and traveling the world. 

However, Parker wanted to start a family immediately after we were married. I thought it was cute that he wanted to be a dad and have a family! But I was not even close to being ready. I just felt like it was the wrong time. 

Luckily Parker patiently waited and we spent four years growing and learning about one another. It was amazing to have that much time together and just be PJ and MJ. We had our highs and  our lows but we realized no matter what we went through, we were in it for forever. 

Last July (2013) Parker prayed about starting a family and within a few months he received the answer yes. I was starting to get nervous because I definitely had not received an answer and I didn't know if I was hindering an answer because I wasn't ready for it. 

But fear not, in October (2013) I had just put a baby down for a nap that I was nannying and went downstairs to do my homework. All of the sudden in the silence, I had an overwhelming feeling that it was time. I started crying and called Parker and told him my experience. Of course we both start crying and it was incredible feeling. 

That feeling lasted a whole two months and then it went away. Something bizarre happened to our marriage. We were not connecting and our relationship became selfish. It was a hard time for us and I still to this day do not understand what happened. Maybe it was something we had to go through to really insure our marriage or maybe it was the advesory trying to break us apart. Whatever it was we got through it and we are stronger than ever.

Once our marriage was back on track after a few weeks I became pregnant! I was shocked! One month and boom it happened. It wasn't planned and I was so unsure of it all but my goodness it must have been meant to be. Seriously, Heavenly Father is sure in charge of my life. He will do whatever it takes for his plan for me to unfold. So during this pregnancy I have been relying on faith. Faith that Heavenly Father knows what he is doing have me being fully responsible for one of his special children. Faith that this is the right time in Parker and I's life and marriage to become parents. Faith that we are equipped to handle this and still continue our dreams. 

Although this pregnancy has been rough, emotional and scary, I am thankful for this experience. I am blessed I get the opportunity to carry a healthy baby BOY. Haha Baby J's  little kicks make it worth it. It truly is a miracle to be able to grow a little baby inside of me. I am trying to be more positive about this pregnancy and really enjoy it for the next fourteen weeks.

I am so thankful for Parker, family and friends who have been supportive and loved me through this. I am so thankful for the opportunity to carry this baby. But most of all I am beyond thankful flattered that Heavenly Father trusts me and knows that Parker and I can do this.