You're just right for this ride.

I remember when I was younger and I would go to amusement parks and I would get told, "You're too short for this ride." Of course I was always bummed because my brothers would run ahead and I would do the walk of shame back to my mom. 
So here I am on a life roller coaster and apparently I am "tall enough" to ride this ride. I don't remember standing in line for this particular ride but ready or not here we go!

So what ride am I on? Well last Wednesday I started cramping or so I thought. It continued to worsen and happen closer together. Parker and my mom begged me to go to the hospital and I finally caved. We booked it to Alta View's labor and delivery. Sure enough I was having full blown contractions and I was in preterm labor at 32 weeks. I couldn't believe it! 
Luckily they were able to stop the contractions with a shot and medicine. They had me take a test to check and see if I would deliver within the next two weeks and it was positive. They gave me steroid shots for his lungs and put me on strict bed rest. 
I had a doctor's appointed this week and so far my cervix is completely closed. Which I am super thankful for. However I am still having contractions and have to stay on bed rest. The doctor said I can stop bed rest at 36 weeks if I don't deliver before then. 
Not only am I on a wild ride but apparently Parker felt left out and wanted to ride too. This Tuesday Parker started having really bad stomach pains and ended up going to the doctors.
 They scheduled an endoscopy and found nothing! We were relieved but Parker was still in pain. Later that night,Parker got a call from his doctor and was told to head to the ER because they saw calcium build up near his appendix and he could have an appendicitis. So we rushed over and luckily it wasn't an appendicitis. Now they are thinking it could be Crohn's disease. Parker will go on Tuesday for a colonoscopy. We are praying it's nothing serious. 
So for right now our roller coaster ride is stuck and we are waiting for the ride to start up again. It's a little nerve wracking because we don't know if it's the part of the ride that goes up or down. We are praying and having so much faith that Heavenly Father has a plan for us and this baby and the ride will be going up. I know Heavenly Father, for some crazy reason thinks we are right for this ride and I'm trying to have faith in that. 
Although this has been such a hard trial we have been so incredibly blessed with such amazing friends, family and ward members to help us out. We can't thank everyone enough for your prayers, support, faith and yummy dinners. It Seriously brings tears to my eyes to think of all the people helping us fight this hard battle. We couldn't do without you. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts. Also a huge shout out to my mom for literally being our cleaner, cook, counselor and angel during this time. She had to be in two places at once when Parker went to the ER and I had to be home. Not only that but keeping me company and helping the days go by faster. 
With all the madness we have been immensely blessed with such beautiful and wonderful people in our lives. Along with a Heavenly Father giving us tender mercies everyday. 



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