Don’t forget

 Sometimes I worry that I will forget the little things about Jagger when he is so young and happy.. The last year it feels more like surviving than living and forget about "thriving." When I do that I tend to go onto autopilot and miss the small moments that end up being the big moments. 

I don’t want to forget that he twirls his hair or mine when he is sleepy or wants comfort. . Jagger will pucker his lips when he wants a kiss, loves hugs and holding my hand. I love how he loves me and makes sure I am taken care of tells me I am beautiful and to not put my hair up or makeup on. He has the biggest heart and his teacher said, "He has too big of a heart for that little of a body." I don’t think he will really ever grow into his big heart, I think it will always be bigger than his body. 

I love how he loves our dogs and calls Zen, "Zenny boo-boo" and how he whispers in their ears that he loves them. He totally gets humor and understands sarcasm and will tease you and laugh right after. Jagger loves to laugh but also is getting really good at identifying what he is feeling and has told me several times, "I just need to cry for a little bit" and has no problem saying, "You hurt my feelings."  He feels things deep and he is not afraid to show it and I love that about him. He dances to his own beat and is totally okay with being different.

Jagger loves superheroes, building with blocks, Pj Masks, singing, learning and emojis haha Jags has also become a sneaky little klepto and take things from preschool and when he is confronted he will say, "I am just borrowing it, geez!" The teacher told me he goes into closets and "shops" for coats that he likes and will put them on. I don’t know where he came up this but the teachers just laugh.

There’s a good chance that he will be my one and only so I really want to remember each of these stages because I probably will only get to experience them once. The truth is even though I might not have another baby, I got so blessed to have one with such a beautiful soul. I am so happy I get to keep him forever. 


Jags, I love you more than all of the superheroes in the world.



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