My missing puzzle pieces

I have a few puzzle pieces in my life that I am missing. But I am thankful for those spaces because with space there is more room to grow. I first and foremost miss my other half of the puzzle, Parker.
Parker is in Minnesota for a training for his work. This boy has worked his but off to get to this training. Parker is so deserving of this he makes me so proud! He strives every day to be the best he can be and my favorite part about this story is he gets to see the benefits of it. Sometimes in my life I feel like I work so hard and I don't get to see the results of my hard work. But Parker has made me see a different outcome. He has shown me if you stay consistent and you continue to do your best you will see results. I LOVE THAT STORY!
Although I am so dang proud of this guy I sure miss him like crazy! Everyone has been asking me what are you going to do without your other half? Everyone knows we are like magnets if I am there he will be there and vice versa. We are always together! But we also have worked really hard to get to that place in our marriage. Anyways I miss him so much and he is definitely the biggest missing piece in my puzzle right now.
Another missing piece is trust in Heavenly Father. I am fully aware that I am a strong girl but God thinks I am really strong. I have been given quite the trials these last few months and it has been hard. But I am learning with that "space" I am growing and I am learning. I love it! I have more patience for people and I am really learning to forgive people who have hurt me but never cared to apologize. I know in this moment this is where I need to be.
My third piece is learning to have a healthy relationship with myself. I need to set healthy boundaries with others to respect myself. I don't want to be taken advantage of. Sometimes it is okay to say no if you are too overwhelmed. Sometimes it's okay to say you are hurting my feelings. I am working on this. I also have some serious issues with critiquing myself too harshly. I need to love myself more and understand I am not perfect.
For right now those are the pieces that I am focusing on. I have a lot more to find but for right now that will help the other pieces fall onto place.
I am growing, learning and becoming better. I absolutely have my weaknesses but I am human and I am here to learn... Xoxoxo

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  1. Hannah RichinsMarch 13, 2013 at 9:56 PM

    Ahh I love this!! So much. You and Parker are SO cute.

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    1. meggynparkyMarch 14, 2013 at 11:08 AM

      Awe thanks so much Hannah! I am obsessed with your blog. You and Landon are adorable! :)

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    2. meggynparkyMarch 14, 2013 at 11:12 AM

      Awe thanks so much Hannah! I am obsessed with your blog. You and Landon are adorable! :)

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